What the heck am I doing?

Now that I have spent eight days spilling my personal life change/weight loss journey over the internet for the world to see (and because I often do things without thinking them through), I have to ask myself, what the heck am I doing? Am I really into posting daily and exposing myself to you all?

The answer is I don't know but, yes, I am in it for the long hall and ready for being healthier. I believe that the change I hope to achieve happens over time. Because I am stubborn, I feel I do not need a program or diet to get me started and see me through. I know that this is completely based upon MY decisions and actions. I am tired of being over weight. I am tired of seeing my photos, looking for clothes and not being able to keep up with my daughter.

Posting daily keeps me accountable for doing what I say I am going to do. I have not been on the journey for just eight days. This is probably the sixth or seventh time since I gained most of this weight that I have "started" this life change. While I do feel a little irritated with myself, I know that I am not the only person who has been in this place. I do have the strength to do this.

This time, I can and will do this. For myself, my life's longevity. If inspiration is found in what I am doing, that would make this journey even that much better.

Here is to new beginnings!