Mind over matter, it has always worked for me!

So the past several weeks have been a test sent from the Universe. I was tested in strength, both mentally and physically. I was tested in will and most importantly I was tested in self love. Being diagnosed with anxiety, depression (based upon a silly test on a silly piece of paper) and tension head aches was a huge eye opener for me and made me see that I fell into a place that I had worked so hard to stay away from. Back to square one you could say, but this time I had the knowledge and experience to pull myself out of it.

While I do feel that people do live with depression daily, I do not buy into the concept that everyone needs to take medications for it. I am not a depressed person. I am a female, need I say more?! As John Trudell says, "I'm just a human being trying to make it in a world that is very rapidly losing its understanding of being human." While the feelings of depression do come in and out of my life, it is not me. Period.

I did not truly believe in anxiety, of course, until it became part of my reality and effected me physically. There are people in my life that suffer from it and while most of them truly suffer for no reason known to them, I did feel that some peoples experiences with it (if not all of it) was brought on by themselves, their lifestyles and their decisions (past and present). Lesson learned. Like a friend once said, "God will always give you what you do not understand". Thank you Universe for setting me straight! I have always been anxious, but was able to talk myself out of it. This time I was unable to do so and the anxiety became physical, not just mental/emotional. Each day gets better and I know I will get past this.

Tension headaches, well, they suck and there is really no fix for them other then relaxing and de-stressing yourself. Right? Still working on this but ya know, life could be worse. I am not going to die, all the tests I have had look great. Still waiting on the appointment for the MRI but doc said not to worry about this as they are just following up on a brain scan that came up with some inconclusive results. He said this happens all the time and that they have to follow up on it (for liability reasons) and it usually results in nothing. 

So what am I doing to fix myself? I tried Sertraline (generic Zoloft)...had a reaction and will never take any psycho drugs again. Just another experience to remind myself that the pharmaceutical companies are not there to help us. Sure, I get that idea of taking a drug to keep your heart, kidneys, liver or other essential organs working, but let's not mess with the brain! It does not seem logical to take a drug that has the same exact side effects as what you are experiencing and that makes you sick for weeks before it "might" work. Only to find out that it does not and that you have to go through the whole process until you find a drug that "might" work. What a racket!

Mediation, positive thoughts, walking, nature, photography, loving my peeps and loving myself enouph to know that I am strong and worth it is what is working. Mind over matter, it has always worked for me!

You could be saying to yourself, "Wow, this chick in nuts" or "Hey, she has a point", either way...thanks for reading :)

Love and light my friends! Happy Summer Solstice! ☼

Keeping it real ~ Not for the squimish

Facebook gifted me with a post today about leading through actions and keeping it real and it has stuck with me. Not because it challenged my way but rather confirmed it. I have not always been true to myself; it was not until just a few years ago I realized my worth and began searching for my authentic niche here on Earth. Now I realize that I will always be searching as I will always be changing and growing, as humans should be.

It was my choice to share this journey to physical and spiritual health online and because I care about motivating and inspiring others; I have to continue to keep it real. The information I share with you in this blog is extremely personal, yet VERY common. I know I am not the only woman who has dealt with the hurdles that I've faced; but I am one of the few who are willing to 'put it out there' to strengthen ones self and others.

I am a firm believer that we live in a time where people all around the world are tired of being mislead, their spirits are low and overall are just unhealthy. In all aspects: physical, mental, spiritual, economical, political...things seem a bit out of control, yeah?! As an individual, you have no control over this. The only control you have is over your own actions. You can change the world by just being your true authentic self and by influencing the positive change you hope to see.

Now, with that said, I am also a firm believer that we live in a world where there is no candy coating to anything and that things just have to be called as they are. I understand that two people perceive things in two different ways but if it is shit, it is shit and I am gonna call it just that. Honesty is always the best policy.

This blog will be a blend of both these concepts; a blend of hope and reality. Up until now, I have kept the posts pretty light. I do warn you though there will be times (in the near future) where the vow to keep it real might get a little offensive or inappropriate BUT it is all in good fun ;)